I know the warmth she gives…

Here’s a touching and courageous story for our One Song feature by our reader Benefit

This is really a challenge to choose between 2 songs that really are deep for me! But between Live to tell and Love tried to welcome me… I’d have to choose Live to tell! Mainly for personal events that happened in my life. The main chorus lyrics “A man can tell a thousand lies, I’ve learn my leason well…” That would apply to me in circonstance when guys used to lie to me for stupid things just to try to get down in my pants. And what come with that is you lose trust in them.
Then at my graduation party, it was an outside party and that night, everyone drank and so did I. But when I was completly past out, a guy or 2 took advantage of me. From that day, I was not only hurt psychologic but physicaly too. For a long time “I had a tell to tell” but I only kept it inside and “It’s hard to hide it well“. I didn’t know how to deal with it. It wasn’t long ago that I really got help and was able to talk about it and it’s been a big 4 years since the incident. The nurse that I was seeing really helped too. She’s the one that gave me courage to talk to the doctor about this and he gave me reference with a psy and a surgeon to see what they could do. If it wasn’t for her, “I would ran away, I’ll never have the chance to go very far” and “will it grow cold the secret that I had. How will they hear, when will they learn, how will they know”. They also told me that your friends are not there to judge you but to help you too, you shouldn’t be afraid to talk to them too about this. Because of this it really help me from not feeling lonely and useless, “I knew where beauty lives, they gave me warmth”. So that song reaches me every time I listen to it… it does remind me of the sadess point in my life at this moment but at the same time it gives me strengh cause when I listen to it, I can tell myself that I won’t let myself go down just for a guy, I’m more powerfull and I have people that helps me go throught that and help me forget all of that. But even tho I had a few different treatment, the physical hurt still shows and I’m still not confident in myself. A lot of time “Love tried to welcome me, but my soul drew back“, I felt “Guilty of lust and sin“…. but that’s another story.

And the reason why I decided to talk about it, it’s because I know that a lot of people go throught these disgusting things in their life. And a lot never come out about it and they keep it inside all there life not knowing how to react or how to trust certain person. I just want to say that you have a chance to help yourself and never doubt a friend’s trust. 2 of my friends because of similar events like this decided not to give it a chance and took the road of death instead. But it’s never to late. To go up the road again, you sometime need help to go throught. Believe in it.

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